STOP THE WORLD, I WANT TO GET OFF!!!

It's midnight on Wednesday and I am writing this post in the hopes that I can unleash the effing hurricane of emotions inside me and move past this...
I am, for the most part, a happy, positive, upbeat, fun person... but tonight I completely lost my shiz...
WOULD THE UNIVERSE PLEASE STOP EFFING ME OVER!!!! I AM DONE! ENOUGH! NO MORE!
I think the trigger for my complete and utter breakdown is this....



This is one of my best friends from home with his brand new baby girl... this is one of my best friends holding his daughter with all the love a father can feel for his little girl...

I want this..... for me, for Teagan. I hate that neither of us will ever share this moment with our fathers...

I am angry at the world today, I am on my knees, I don't think I could possibly be further to rock bottom than right now. Why? Why does it seem that the least deserving of it, seem to land up with it 9 times out of 10? Why is it that I feel like God is trying to teach me something and I just can't seem to understand the lesson, so he keeps trying and I keep failing...

I received a random email the other day, and all it said was "God brought you to it... And he will bring you through it" - but will it be in one piece??